To continue my Hashimoto story which I am so happy I finally wrote - I got great feedback, support and advice from many of you. Thank you. For all your emails, fb messages and comments. Also, I forgot to mention a book that helped me understand much about Thyroid in general. It's called 'Why do I still have thyroid symptoms (when my lab tests are normal?)''. Thank you Lea for reminding me:)!
Blue is the warmest colour
A few months before I was diagnosed and a few months after that really sucky summer I mentioned in the last post, I went to Istambul. Beautiful city I fell in love with right away. We stayed in a boutique hotel in a room with a blue colour theme (all rooms were different), and our blue room felt so comforting to me. It had a beautiful (blue!) bed throw I really wanted to have at home, so I spent hours at the bazaar trying to find similar one. I didn’t find the bed throw in blue and bought another one, but my obsession with a colour I never really noticed before continued. Light blue jeans, blue shirts, T-shirts, leggings, underwear… Finally I painted two of my living room walls in a nice turquoise blue one Saturday afternoon without giving it much thought earlier.
So, when the lab emailed my test results and my thyroid hormones were out of sync, I gazed upon my blue wall and thought ‘Ok, now you make sense!’.
Blue is the colour of throat chakra, and throat chakra is associated with Thyroid gland. All of the sudden everything started to unravel. I looked back at a year behind me and had many of those ‘aha... and oh... moments’. As I mentioned before, it almost comes as a relief to know that all those mood swings and ups and downs were not you going crazy. Something is actually wrong.
I knew that my body is trying to tell me something. But, am I ready to listen?
Voicing our hearts
Throat chakra is associated with self-expression, communication and with speaking our truth without fear. Our speech should be used to voice our hearts, but this often is not the case. We don’t give a voice to our heart, we often keep hidden what it has to say. Even from ourselves.
Communication is not only verbal, some of the greatest artists were introverts, but they communicated and expressed themselves through their art. Through their paintings, music, poems…
We don't need to tell someone we love them, we can show and express our love in so many other, non verbal ways. We also communicate trough our energy fields. We can expand and contract our energy field depending on how we feel towards a person, situation etc. These are all different forms of communication.
The problem arises when we don't communicate our emotions, our ideas, our true selves. When we keep the truth hidden - often out of fear. Mostly of losing what we have, the life we have, the partner we have, the job, the status... We keep forgetting that it is not possible to lose what truly belongs to us, or to hold on to what doesn't. When we are holding on to what doesn't - we are holding on to an illusion. And deep inside we know this, our heart knows the truth.
Yes, there are many forms of communication, and whichever we choose to use, we should communicate our true self with honesty and without fear. I believe if we did this, there would not be so many thyroid problems.
The scenic route
So, apart from painting my walls blue, I had to do some soul searching. I had a talk with my heart, made some life changing decisions and started to move towards them. I realized I kind of got lost a bit and had to find out where exactly I was before I could move forward. I also had to figure out where forward was and which route I'm going to take. Fast one? Scenic one? Toll free? Ok, scenic it is! Via India perhaps.. :)
I can joke now, but it wasn't easy, it takes time and often hurts to let go of that which is not good for you. Which doesn't serve your path, your truth. Especially when it comes to people.
It is not easy, nor is it quick, but the moment you start walking the road that feels right, you feel free. And freedom is what it's all about. Freedom of the soul. That great expansion I am sure we all feel from time to time - especially when we serve our truth. It is that feeling of being invincible. Of knowing you, loving you and being you. And has nothing to do with what we have, what we do, who we're with or even what we know. That's the road we should follow.
He spoke of very simple things – that it is right for a gull to fly, that freedom is the very nature of his being, that whatever stands against that freedom must be set aside, be it ritual or superstition or limitation in any form.
“Set aside,” came a voice from the multitude, “even if it be the Law of the Flock?”
“The only true law is that which leads to freedom,” Jonathan said.
“There is no other.”
A few Yoga tips for those suffering from any thyroid problems:
- See if you can find the root of the problem. What is it you are not expressing or communicating? Don't think your disease is a problem - it is more likely a wake up call. A chance to grow and change what needs to be changed.
- Surround yourself with BLUE. Light blue, turquoise blue. You don’t need to paint your living room, but you can buy blue bed linen to sleep in, wear something blue, maybe just a scarf, of underwear.
- Chanting is great for throat chakra. I sing mantras all the time as they generally sooth me. Play some Wah or Deva Premal or Krishna Das and sing!:)
- Ham is Vishudda’s bija mantra. You can just repeat the bija mantra – it is very powerful.
- Pranayama is generally a great tool, but be very careful if you have hyperthyroide (over production of hormone) symptoms like insomnia, anxiety, heart palpitations etc. Than just work on deep and relaxing breath like Ujjayi.
- When you have hyper symptoms you need to ground. Go for a slow, mindful walk in a park or a forest. If you practice, do a very gentle restorative practice. Or just lie down in Shavasana and breathe deeper for a few minutes before relaxing completely. Take long and deep breaths and notice your body move with the breath. It is very soothing and meditative.
- Asanas that can help: slow and gentle neck rolls, Sarvangasana, Setu banda sarvangasana, Halasana, Karna pidasana, Matsyasana, rotations of cervical spine like in Virabhadrasna II. Generally, all flexion and extension of the neck. Don't go too deep though, this will compress the neck and will also stop the flow of prana.
- If you are experiencing symptoms more than usual it could mean that your Thyroid has just suffered another attack and is inflamed. Like with any other inflammation, it is best to just relax for a few days and not stimulate with heath and asana. Avoid dynamic classes atleast for a few days or until symptoms subside. Do some breath work and meditate instead.
- Meditation / relaxation / visualization are the greatest tools you can use. Play some yoga nidra on you tube (there are full classes available - pick one you like) or go to a class if one is available.
- Find a good Ayurvedic doctor /practicioner to help you balance your dosha and support your particular needs.
If you need more tips on how to use yogic tools to address your particular symptoms, feel free to contact me and I'll see if I an help:)